Tuesday, April 26, 2016

V is for Vicious Cycles

I am participating in the 2016 A-to-Z Blog Challenge. My theme is the music of my life.


The wait.
6 years.
6 rounds of IVF.
5 pregnancies.
5 miscarriages.
0 births.





"Wait"Sarah McLachlan

Under a blackened sky
far beyond the glaring streetlights
sleeping on empty dreams
the vultures lie in wait
You lay down beside me then
you were with me every waking hour
so close I could feel your breath
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the new born hope unjaded by their years
Pressed up against the glass
I found myself wanting sympathy
but to be consumed again
oh I know would be the death of me
and there is a love that's inherently given
a kind of blindness offered to appease
and in that light of forbidden joy
oh I know I won't receive it
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the newborn hope unjaded by their years
You know if I leave you now
it doesn't mean that I love you any less
it's just the state I'm in
I can't be good to anyone else like this
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the new born hope unjaded by their years...

5 comments:

  1. Sending you a hug. I know how hard it is. I didn't experience the pregnancies/miscarriages, but definitely infertility sucks.

    betty

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    1. Yes, it does. It's amazing how many go through it!

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  2. I went through a miscarriage and infertility, too. It's amazing how common it is. :-( Big hugs.

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    1. Big hugs to you too. Miscarriages suck. And you're right. They are so, so common.

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  3. It still breaks my heart when I think about what you went through and it even made me angry at God that He wouldn't bless you with a living baby. For all the commonness of miscarriage - and even infertility - I don't understand why people don't talk about them more.

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